herlucidlife

Hello Naje here…

Simply put, I am taking a very long break from YouTube.  

The channel was created about 6 months ago. Initially, it was created because of money. I noticed in the videos I seemed so concerned about not seeming like I was doing it for the money, when in fact I was doing it for the money. There was some enjoyment in creating the videos, and the content published was every bit of authentic, but honestly talking to a camera is draining. 

I like to hide out in the deep corners of my mind and it’s hard to do that while speaking. The depths of my soul are introverted, my spiritual self likes to wonder freely through the catacombs of my thoughts. Words, mmm words…I’ve always wanted to be a writer, my thoughts flow freely when communication is non-verbal. With that being said, YouTube just wasn’t a good creative fit, though my content was genuine. I jumped on a platform bandwagon, when I should have leaned into my strengths.

So, I’m allowing God to redirect me. I will be using this blog platform to share my inner thoughts and above all, I will be sharing the messages God would have me to provide. My life is a service to Him, and I’m not doing Him or myself any favors by neglecting the talents He graced me with. Thank God, I have another creative venture that I will be uploading to YouTube in due time, but my main focus is the blog.  

Not gone lie, I’ve been thinking about redirection for a while. I’m choosing to believe that God allowed YouTube to direct me to my deepest passion that had laid dormant. I allowed myself to believe that my dreams were done, that I needed schooling to do what I truly love. Funny how I almost bought into the lies of Satan, BUT GOD. 

The lies in my head would have me to believe that quitting or redirecting is lazy. That some how I’m running away when things get tough or that I didn’t give it my all before throwing in the towel. Yet, I truly believe it’s holding on for too long that creates damage. It’s the working yourself into the ground for something that just really isn’t for you. It’s okay to start over, it’s okay to change your mind and direction. A huge weight has been lifted off of my shoulders by simply giving myself permission to change. Never feeling like I quit or gave up, rather I feel more in touch with myself for listening. Taking note of how I was feeling from beginning to end.  Never do I fall into the trap of thinking every step will be easy, but I do believe the correct platform can bring a sense of ease when bringing creativity to light. 

Please take a page out of my book, redirect and change boldly through the name of Jesus. Don’t let your mind keep you stagnant, keep you from trying different things, keep you from evolving. God would have you to change, to face Him, pray for the redirection and then embrace it boldly.