herlucidlife

Life has been pulling her mind in all different directions; over here in love land, over here in house land, over her in her land, and yet she has no clue what she’s doing and no clue what she wants. 

She’s been focused on things that won’t change, splitting her attention isn’t good for the future ahead. The road she has to cross needs all of her energy and time. She often liked to distract herself with thoughts of him, when really she was just procrastinating on the other parts of her life that really needed attention. 

A home that needs fixing, a soul that needs settling, mentally exhausted, she doesn’t know what she wants. Looking to God for all the answers, He stopped her from moving in the direction she thought was right, what is He telling her now ? Regrouping, her mind is unwell. Like how do you figure out what you want when everything sounds appealing ? Too ready to get to the fun, man she had work to do, hard work. God is telling her something super crucial, the mind is shifting finally to what she needs and wants. 

First she felt no stress, God was making her slow down and take a closer look at where she was, soon her head was pounding, why was she so ready to be unstuck ? One day she was in the park and this child was stuck in the swing and he began to cry, though his mother was standing right in front of him helping him get free. She is that child, crying pleading, all while God stands in front of her literally freeing her from what’s keeping her bound. 

There’s some heart changes that need to happen before God will give her the blessing. He knows she’s not ready, purposely slowing her down, keeping her out of harm’s way. Why stress when God is standing in front of her, literally freeing her ?  She always thought of her home as a trap, a curse almost but what if it was God’s protection, her mother’s protection.  She has so many options, why settle on one and get stressed when other wonderful options come into play ?

He’s doing this on purpose, something is brewing for her. She was rushing, moving full steam ahead. He had to slow her down to a halt, and man it gave her a weird sense of peace knowing that there was time to think, she doesn’t have to run, it’s okay to walk, heck crawl if needed. But to not stress because God is standing in front of her, freeing her daily. Satan would have her to focus on the wrongs, the bad, but evil is beneath God. He’s conquered everything, there is no evil versus good, it’s simply just His goodness. He reigns supreme, goodness is around her, flowing through her, and in her, she receives His goodness daily. 

Life is not going as planned though wanting to be stressed, she is excited for the changes. Getting used to being uncomfortable the only constant is God’s goodness, He’s leading, directing and preparing. So let’s be obedient and not stress, because that kills.