herlucidlife

You make it seem easy like my heart being left on read doesn’t bother you. Like how you leave my worries left in the trash because yours are so heavy you can’t even look down to see that you’ve stepped on me. But it can’t be that easy. I see you jet setting around the world, maybe you’re running from the truth that sneaks in your mind when you’re at home. You talk around me like I’m a thorn, too easy to feel feelings for so you walk on eggshells. 

Funny because I’m in love with you, meaning you can make room and stretch out in my life. I want you to take up space, filling every corner of my existence. Take off your mask and armor. It’s okay to be yourself through and through because that’s your beauty. Crumpled and raw, ain’t nothing better than you emotionally naked, vulnerable is vibrant on you, let me see your light. Shine on me, but mm it’s not that easy. Easy, is walking away, pretending you don’t feel me. Easy is not trying but hoping I stay around for the second life when you randomly decide to think about loving me.

I want someone who is undeserving of me, but then again I ain’t nothing special. I broke someone’s heart on a Wednesday morning before driving to work, and you probably think I’ll break yours on Thursday afternoon before lunch. I’m dangerous, unpredictable and a little crazy about you, but wouldn’t it be fun to try it anyway ? Then again that’s not easy. I want you to lean on me, putting weight on me so heavy that it smothers me but mm I’ll never lose my breath loving you. But you talk to someone already, you’ve found another to replace me because you’ve got to be talking to someone. I just wish it were me.

Tell me how easy it was to replace me ? Because I always thought I was an original but clearly you thought differently.  Tell me how easy it is to keep quiet ? Because I can’t seem to stop telling the world how I feel about you, I’d like to stop if you teach my heartless ways, we can both be cold and further than distant, we can be nothing. Nothing is easy, nothing is what you say, nothing is what you think of me. 

I really don’t yearn for easy, anything with you would be better than waiting in a cold room for someone that would hold the heat to themselves. But hey! My heart can’t convince you, I’m not sure I trust time she could take you away or me away, so I’ll have to trust God. I’m scared He’s already said that it’s over. So I’ll stand in this cold room waiting for you to bring the heat because anything is better than easy without you.