herlucidlife

A whirlwind of emotion, You have me questioning the way I walk and talk. Is it the music? Is sleeping too long in the morning to the point where Your word is digested after everything has taken place. No longer first in the day is rest an idol too? Views are shifting showing it’s the small inconsistencies that don’t line up with Your Faith, seeming to blur lines between righteous and unrighteous. Changing every single thing about me once brought into the picture would I give up my favorite crooner when asked? Would I lay down the hobbies and comforts of this world though not seen as morally wrong but if it doesn’t bring me closer to You then is it really Good? 

Stepping on the toes of my heart, it’s so clear how man could never be perfect it would take too long to convince our foolishness to fully lay down for You. Sitting in group we watched a man seemingly close to the Word of God, but by years time he strayed so far away from Truth in order to appease the human flesh. I often wonder it’s not only the creation suppressing the Spirit, really the world is so used to hatred that it’s made to look at Love with a microscope so detailed true believers barely have a chance in bringing anyone to You. We humans don’t save anything but it’s Your Holy Spirit working through us Who saves. Unfortunately we believers to suppress the Spirit and often time turn to lies of the world. 

Guilty in all forms of the word, sinning left and right if anyone looked at my wrap sheet I doubt my actions would bring them to Jesus, for my actions only began to change months ago. It’s the unchanged raggedy in the professed Christian that’s killing the gospel message, it’s the watered down view we have of God that’s keeping people from His feet. God has and always will be the Almighty and His Will will be brought forth with or without man. We’re just simply allowing heaven to be less populated but everything He spoke will come to pass. 

I have an issue with the way I’ve lived my life. Mostly it’s the inconsistent way I’ve shown my allegiance to the Father that has rubbed me the wrong way. If I’m unconvinced then surely others have to be too. Especially those who know nothing about me, what in me would pull you to Christ if you saw me acting out of turn? Really I should be praying God protects those who came across my path while deep in sin for they didn’t see God, they saw a Christian trying to suppress the Spirit for evil. If I could put Him on the shelf then how badly do I truly want to follow Him? For if something is truly special I’d never put it down for it could get stomped on or misplaced. 

Will questioning lead to better actions or immobile guilt? Examination is worthless without repentance and true changing of the heart. Not a magic trick really, it’s a direct shifting in the mind created by Jesus’ blood in order that my being moves differently because of Him and for Him.