herlucidlife

God’s grace is sufficient for my overall life. Renewing every single day never runs dry yet His grace doesn’t take away consequences of my actions nor will it remove the thorn in my side. I get into a low where life feels unbearable though no significant events have taken place within the weeks. Life can seem empty almost when looking at the inner walls of my mind. Moving in the midst of a depressed state, going on even though it seems to make no sense. Walking forward when every inch of my body wants to stop and go home. I am here anyway. Purpose pitched to my name work is being done all around me and through me, wild my mind is preoccupied with the illusions of life. God is still moving me forward in line with what He has laid out even my detours were written in the stars, painted by His hand only. 

I’m moving like a wounded animal. I look at myself and I don’t recognize her. My face has changed, the spirit inhabiting the bones has shifted into adulthood. Carrying baggage I never wanted to claim, I’ve been dropping off the luggage slowly taking my time. Everything is acquired quickly without notice yet returning the void is painful, necessary, and needed for the life I truly want written only by God’s control. I choose to believe I’m already living that life, development is lifelong while it’s fruitful to understand the thorn will never be removed from my side until I cross over to the other side. There will always be a demon on my back exchanging places with the other, there must always be something to keep me in humility with myself. For if I were to reach any type of perfection on this side completed from my hands then boasting will not be given to God alone.

Boasting, to praise the Most High, giving honor to His work, being proud of what He’s done for me will be the only ointment for the thorn. Naturally life is set up to deplete me of the power God gives, and I only have it because God granted it to me through faith in Him, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. I only have strength because God has made Himself accessible through Jesus Christ only. For salvation gave me forever eternal connection to the Most High through Jesus’ blood. If I do not sip from His well daily this life will suck out anything good given by Him. God doesn’t leave but I do. God will never forsake me yet I do it most days without even knowing sometimes. 

His grace will always be sufficient, through the bad choices, through the consequences, through morphing into a new creature, through the events of life I have no control over…grace will never run dry, forever flowing like a raging river into my heart onto my life His grace is sufficient. The same is equally true for anyone that believes in God and anyone who is a disciple of God allowing His truth to manifest into action on behalf of His direction. Grace is sufficient.