herlucidlife

I love to pop off when I write. Flowing through the fingers like liquid gold, I’ll never get enough of this gift flowing from my tongue like miracle magic. Words are life and death and every single day God is showing me those that have come to life from a simple 3 minute share in a N.A. meeting. Going on our first “date” or hang out session. It was like walking on water only looking at Jesus. It was like tasting the sensation of a phenomenon unfolding. It was like watching my mind permanently shut off. I actually heard every word he said and I remember each thing he told me. In the past I’d be in my head so badly I could barely remember what the boy said, barely able to respond to keep the conversation going. 

Different is the best word to describe this moment in time. Sweet because two godly people coming together to simply know the other. I couldn’t express enough gratitude to God for that simple evening on Sunday. Tripping over ourselves thank God I’m not the only one tripping. Too much alike it’s like looking in the mirror. Almost too good to be true yet anything God does is too good. I don’t look for the other shoe to drop, I have faith beyond words for this life I live today. Praying for him more than I do myself, caring for him the way I’d want to be cared for in a friendship. 

I go against fear to be available. I seek out a small amount of courage to be of service with my presence. Just being present is service enough, not everyone needs something to be done. Most folks have everything they need and don’t need help executing tasks but a listening ear that is caring with no judgment is hard to find these days. Looking at myself with a sharp eyed view has granted me compassion and identification with those around me. Praying over my judgmental thoughts of those I do not know has led me to clear my consciousness of such guilt. We all live our lives based on what we think is best for us. I wake up thankful everyday that I don’t have to live like anyone else. Serenity comes in when I accept the way I’ve chosen to migrate through the days of my life. 

With each day I move closer to checking off much needed goals, some have already been completed. God is good and every moment good is God.