herlucidlife

God is filling the void in my heart. Never understood what that meant or felt like. Going through life for me it means knowing He sits with me when I cry. Internalizing I’m never alone when I feel lonely. Heard and understood when my emotions are choking me. Convicting in order to guide my steps to His glory. Discipline because a good Father reigns His children in after they’ve been roaming for too long. Safety, home is in His hands and soul. He knows how to handle my fragility, not doing more harm but breaking down to build up. 

Filling voids in my heart feels like sitting with Jesus pouring myself out while He fills me up. It feels like struggling with the emotions inside but not acting out on them harming myself and those around me. It feels like going to God before I go to people. Everything I need can be filled with God, people are great yet they can not fix what’s inside. My experience has shown that when I go to God every single concern, issue and joy is correctly taken care of. I only go to people when He guides me to the necessary people. 

Many in my inner circle have been blessed beyond words. The beauty about a blessing is its hand crafted, perfectly tailored to the recipient. Not simply a gift it’s God acknowledging the person He’s created on a personal level. Including experiences, personality, relationship with Him, the foundation needed for the next blessing, even down to the people the blessing is going to affect outside of the recipient. I want to celebrate the goodness God has given me. Yet when I think of something it does not feel like enough, then I think perhaps celebration is showing appreciation daily through stewardship and thanksgiving.