herlucidlife

Things that I once held near and dear are now shifting. The money got a little funny. I no longer ask God to change anything in my situation and circumstance. Instead He receives gratefulness, thanksgiving and appreciation. Paying bills, fueling the car, spending money on food a little too much…a negative amount began to show. No worry, I found myself on my knees thanking God for granting everything I needed on that day. Worked hard the next day, granted myself an instant pay out. The bank even gave me money. God covers all of my needs. I learned a long time ago it’s better to go to God when things get sticky than people. He works miracles, they don’t. 

In some cases God will involve others simply to spread His love, while other times He takes care of the issue without any need to concern anyone else. Budgeting, calculating I could see that delivering food is a money drainer. Applying for jobs, going to interviews…it was a restaurant that was willing to take a chance on me. A good interview doesn’t guarantee the job. I tend to try and fit what the employer wants me to be yet that has never granted me the job. Instead this time I was brutally honest. Sitting in a booth across the table from the manager, having had a great conversation. My gut said be honest…I told him, “I’ve interviewed with several jobs it seems the interview goes well yet never resulting in a job…did the interview go well?” Understanding my question, speaking to the general manager I was hired right then. 

A waiter may not seem big yet any employment is a huge deal when I drive past folks huddled in tents under bridges, begging for anything to get through the day. In just two months I’ve been afforded the opportunity to do things I’ve only dreamt of, though simple in thought. Nothing is simple when I did not have the guts to interact with the Holy Spirit inside. Being honest, I’ve always applied for jobs that I thought would be socially acceptable to the people around me. Hearing the inflection in the voice of others, like “oh you’re still there?” Or “oh that’s okay in the meantime.” Every job to me is in the meantime, I aspire to be an author building on what I do now. Delivery driving was something I’d always thought would be fun, now waitressing is up on the docket. 

I’m excited to create a beautiful experience surrounding food. I love eating more so for the experience. Talking to the waiter, perusing the menu everything looking soo delicious. Receiving a thirst quenching drink, the recevoir glistened with mist from something chilled. It’s more than food, it’s a moment of all around satisfaction tingling every sensation. Another level of personal growth, folks love to be cared for and thought of. Something I’m not always great at providing. Lessons have been stacking up, I’m ready to learn.