herlucidlife

Sometimes I hear God is preparing me for someone. I think to myself, what if God isn’t preparing me for anyone and I’m simply believing a lie I told myself? I really need to calm down. I been single for a hot second and I literally don’t know what to do with myself. The sky isn’t falling, why am I in a rush? Coming to the end of step three. Going over the material with my sponsor to make sure I have a good understanding and application of the step. My will has been blaring. God’s will has been obvious at times while others times I have to ask. 

Making the decision to turn my will over daily is an action.  It begins with prayer, surrendering any and everything. Focusing my attention on Him one day at a time, moment by moment. Asking God to help me let go of things that aren’t from Him. Obedience, yearning to move differently. Behaving how God calls me too. These things are done multiple times throughout the day. Acting in my will is natural while looking for God’s will has to be learned. Thankfully He is the ultimate teacher. His divine hand guided me through the day. I’m more thoughtful and intentional. Empathetic to those around me, understanding that I can not control someone else’s life. 

In wanting to share the gospel, I got ahead of myself in my head. Sharing God’s word doesn’t mean pointing out sins. Self-righteousness hit different this time, it came in the form of wanting to do good by God and love on someone else yet it was still what I thought they should be doing in the eyes of God. Though the Bible backed up what I was saying, I was out of turn because I’m not always living the way I should be either. I was looking at the speck in their eye while ignoring the log in mine. 

I have a friend who has a lifestyle I don’t agree with. Not because I dislike it but because God said it’s wrong. I felt the need to tell this person how I felt about how they were living. I prayed deeply, spoke to my sponsor and another trusted friend and listened carefully for God’s voice. Sometimes the best thing to do is to love someone and let God take care of the rest. I believe sharing my feelings would have pushed her from God and not towards Him. Though we are to correct each other in love, that correction is for those who are actively chasing God. It’s none of my business where this person is in their walk with God. I kept my mouth closed and instead shared the love of God with this person and prayed over them. 

God always answers prayers that glorify His will. At the right time He will create a space to speak the hard truth.