herlucidlife

Thank you! I admire every subscriber, every person who has liked a post, and every unknown viewer. Thank you! You are a part of my life experience. When I began writing I wasn’t looking for views or recognition. I just needed an outlet, a safe space to release my emotions. You all have walked with me through the darkest days in my life. You’ve also witnessed the brightest sunshine entering my soul. Support, commenting encouraging words of love. I felt seen when I wanted to be invisible, I felt heard when my heart was cracked, I felt loved when I thought I was unlovable. 

A God given community of people, thank you for acknowledging me. The simplest thing to do in this world is listen, yet it takes the most mental focus to sit quietly not saying a word. Gazing at someone with care, not attempting to speak, just hearing so the other is felt. You do that for me. Selfishly, I don’t share my story to somehow help someone else, though I’m glad it does. I share out of obligation to myself and obedience to God. This gift has saved my soul in ways I can not describe. 

She was with me in that dark bathroom for hours on end as I smoked my sorrows. She was present when my life seemed to end when the blunt ended. She was here when my marriage ended and caressed me to sleep when my heart ached with grief. She listened without judgment over the boy I cheated with. She lent a shoulder when I made the decision to get clean and stay clean. She heard my cry when I took the first step in changing my life. She loved me back to health when I was abandoned by the man I thought loved me. She cheered for me when I passed every clean date milestone. She cried with me when I gave gratitude to the Most High God. 

God gives the greatest gifts. They keep giving and never run dry. So I thank you viewer, subscriber, liker, commenter for being here with me on this experience.