herlucidlife

I’ve been struggling with overeating for years now. I eat my emotions, whether good and bad. Yet, I was reminded of when God brought the Israelites out of Egypt. They were in the wilderness and hungry. Crying to Moses saying, “why have you brought us out of Egypt to starve to death in the wilderness.” Moses spoke with God and manna fell from the sky every single day. God commanded the Israelites to only take what they needed for the day, nothing more nothing less ONLY what they needed. Some took extra and the next morning the manna had turned into maggots. The next day God reiterated that each household is only to take what they need for the day. 

Not taking extra is a sign of trust in God. Overeating is greedy. Though not consciously I am eating out of fear of not having food the next day, fear that I will miss out. If God doesn’t wake me up the next day then I would’ve eaten all the food I wanted too. It’s a lack of trust in God’s provision over my life. I’ve never been hungry. Past food God has always provided in abundance. Overeating is living as if I’m not connected to abundance through Christ. I don’t want to behave contrary to Who I believe in, in any area of my life. 

More and more I’m becoming comfortable with bringing God up in conversation. More and more I’m becoming comfortable with the path He’s laid out for my life. I hear the thought process of people around me. It’s really easy to forget that stacking treasures on earth can be stolen and grow rust. It is frivolous. While storing treasure in heaven is eternal. Why aim “high” when it can be taken away? Being a good steward of blessings is different from chasing money or status in hopes of having a “better” life. I’m intentional about my blessings and how I care for them yet I’ve never been focused on a dollar amount or having a “career.” A career is just a fancy word for a job with upward mobility. 

I’ve learned and seen that my life has more joy, contentment and purpose when I focus on the treasure of God than that of this world. Everything I need has been given and a lot of what I want. It’s okay to be close minded on somethings, it just means I know what’s important and leave what is not.