herlucidlife

Getting through the day by God’s grace, my body was dragging and moving slowly. Walking out of the doors of work, feeling the sun on my face with a cool breeze. Sweater season has arrived with amber and gold colored leaves draped around the tree limbs falling to the ground. Warm in the car, exhaling feeling the stress of the day melt off my shoulders. Eyes closed for a moment, the sun peeking through my eyelids as my body pressed into the car seat. I can relax. Excited for a calm evening at home with Mimi. It’s been a while since I spent a Saturday night at home. Walking over the threshold, Mimi forces herself out the door to roll on the concrete slab I call my front doorstep. Shoes and clothes coming off, Mimi sprinting through the house while I eat a cookie. She meows and squeaks in my direction. I always let her know she is heard and seen. 

Pushing my cuticles back before hopping into the shower. Eating leftovers from a wonderful Thanksgiving meal I had with my church family. Folks that do not look like me yet have a heart for the Lord invited me into their home, graciously willing to share their food and family with me. Feeling at home, joy beaming from my face. The love of God comes in all forms, and He is showing me that even the unlikeliest of people have His heart. Winding down for the night, YouTube video in full effect, belly full of soul food. Mimi wanted to play. Swinging feathers in all directions watching her pounce and bounce. I wanted to sing; it always brings great joy. Criss crossed in the middle of my living room floor, my face and mind light as the words flowed from my mouth. 

Beginning with a love song from my favorite artist it soon turned into a worship session. My heart and soul smile when I sing, “You are Hoooooooly.” Mimi continues to run and dart while I sing to God. Her little tail flopping back and forth in excited rhythmic motions. God is holy. He is my safe space when nowhere feels safe. He is my quiet place when my thoughts are too loud. He is my confirmation when I make one event seem like the end of the world. He is my remembrance when I forget how good He is. He is my Father because I need a Father. He is my truth when my voice speaks lies. He is my light when I forget that I can never lose His love. His love is never taken away because it belongs to Him, He is gracious and merciful to give freely. 

He is my cornerstone when my mind is unstable. He is my strength when the body and mind are weak. He never gives up on me, so I never give up on myself. There’s no question that I am His daughter and believe me I used to question it. Yet when I accept that God’s love is permanent, He does not go back on His word. Nothing comes back void or empty, no lies come from His breath. His is the truth no matter what, He stands on business at all times and never fails. He is the most perfect being, eternal God with love undying faith unfailing strength unbroken and heart never ending. The well is never dry, will never run out and will always be. He is God because He is Holy.