herlucidlife

I got a new job. I left the comfort of what I knew for something I didn’t. I left for a little more money. I prayed before applying, prayed after applying and continued to pray through the whole process. Given over to God, I was content with whatever He decided. He taught me that I don’t have to be fed up in order to move forward. Things don’t have to be so bad that it pushes me out. Saying goodbye to my co-workers, I was going to miss their faces while very excited for the new contacts I would make with others. Crazy how people I never knew I would meet feel so close. My last day at the job was bittersweet. I was ready for a change of pace while still loving the people I worked with. I almost hated to leave the building but it was time. Saying my goodbyes, feeling the love from my co-workers. I left the building. 

A little anxious about how funds would hit in the in-between. God shows up in the details. Aligned perfectly, once again the bills never missed a beat. Paid on time, more than enough. When God operates it’s always better than what I could have hoped or wished. He takes care of me at all times. I boast in the Lord because it wasn’t me, it was Him! Finishing one job Saturday afternoon, beginning the next on Monday afternoon. I went right into it, meeting new people, going through a thorough training process. I’m enjoying myself, walking into what seems to be a good company. All companies have their downfall because anything made with human hands will not be perfect. Soaking in everything I need to do this job to the best of my ability. 

Worship. Daily life is worship, it is living life unto the Lord. Doing things that bring Him glory. It’s not groundbreaking, nor rocket science. It’s spending time with God. It’s moving when He tells me to move. It’s eating healthy and drinking water. It’s treating my cat well. It’s sharing the love of God with those around me. It’s holding to His commands and status no matter who I’m around. Loving God is lowkey simple, spend time with Him and don’t do things that go against Him. I’ve been reading “The Awe of God” by John Bevere. Beginning this week the book is already shifting how I approach the relationship I have with God. I’m learning what holy fear is. Something I thought was so deep is rather simple in its concept meaning, I turn away from sin so as to not damage the relationship I have with God. 

Reading this book even for this short time has really brought to my heart how much I love God. When I think about my life, He has always been there even when I tried to push Him away. As someone who is so scared to be abandoned in romantic relationships and who often leaves people behind. I’ve seen how God has clung to me and I to HIm. John chapter fifteen verse one through seven has really been stuck on my mind. The blood of Jesus runs through the vine and connects Him to the branches. God is the vineyard keeper, cutting characteristics and people who are no longer bearing His fruit. Yes! People denounce God and when that happens He removes them from His presence. While those children that stay, He continues to tend to them so they may grow deeper characteristics that produce even more fruit. 

The fruit He is growing in me is holy fear which directly grows my love for Him thus deepening our relationship.