herlucidlife

Going deeper in God, reading “The Awe of God” by John Bevere the statement was posed “to fear God is to hate sin.” Sometimes it takes more than bumping your head, sometimes it takes being run over by life. Sometimes it’s the only way the old is broken so badly only God can stitch together someone new. There is no amount of good deeds that I could perform to give God all He is due for saving my life, that doesn’t mean I won’t stop trying to live for Him. Since God has helped remove the more outward sins in my life, I see so clearly how my sins are rooted in darkness and secrecy. Ezekiel chapter eight verse twelve describes the elders of the church hiding in the darkness of the church in secrecy practicing idolatry, giving praise to the gods. 

It reminded me that two things happen when sin is present. One, sin is done in the dark, most of the time it can be a well kept secret. Two, it’s the community of people that condone our sin that makes it seem not so dark and wrong. I hid my sin from God and others because I didn’t want to be held accountable, until I found folks that condoned my sin and made me feel better about it. The root of my sin is hidden in the darkness of my heart, it’s my perverse thinking, my warped perspective that ultimately boils over into my behavior. I looked for people to condone my sin because I did not want the truth of God to find me, though God always has eyes on His creation. No sin goes unnoticed. I began believing the illusion that God could not see me because the consequences were delayed. 

Delayed consequences does not mean God does not see the sin. It does not mean that God is allowing the sin to go unnoticed. The elders of Israel thought they were safe in their secret place but God soon brought wrath and anger. Sin evokes wrath, it is a gut wrenching pain God feels in His heart when those who said they loved Him turn away. When the very creation He made says they don’t love Him, that would hurt any parent. God is no different in feeling that extreme pain. His heart hurts from our sin. I don’t believe I can accurately talk about the consequence of sin without mentioning God’s broken heartedness and wrath that will one day be poured out over the earth. In some cases it already has been poured out on certain groups of people. 

When reading these words, I was inclined to keep myself in the hot seat because how many times have I hid my sins from people? How many times have I gone into my dark place to do my sin in “peace?”  It is only through turning my heart toward God through faith in the blood of Jesus that saved me from His wrath. It was nothing I’ve done but all about what Jesus has done on the cross. His blood continues to work in my soul daily, I’m learning to not just be grieved by my outward sins but my inward sins as well. I run myself ragged trying to show God I’m worthy of His love but I’m not. He gave His love because He wanted to. He saved my soul because He wanted to. It’s that simple! He died on the cross for every soul because He wanted to out of love for His creation. It’s up to you whether you choose HIm. It’s never too late until it’s too late.