herlucidlife

Consistency creates confidence. Self esteem is built through consistently taking care of myself and making other’s lives easier. I look to bring peace to all around me. I look to be of service to those in my lane. Hard work, doing healthy things every day that will ultimately equate into good results. I walk around my life with focus, denying distractions, I walk with ease in my decisions today. One decision can have detrimental or beneficial effects. My heart has overcome many heartbreaks, most dealt from my own hands. I thank God today I know when to say no and when to say yes. Bumping my head enough times has caused the wisdom to stick and stay. 

I didn’t think I could streamline my life anymore until God began bringing my attention to major distractions in my life. Apps, not all applications but specifically those that are scrollable. I’ve deleted all social media apps that I scroll on constantly. Day one I noticed how focused, present and intentional I was about daily experiences. Putting my phone on Do Not Disturb. God is removing things while also preparing me for the greatness He has. Preparation is a daily doing, constant obedience to His will. The preparation is not for a big event, today sets me up for the choices I need to make tomorrow. Specifically I see myself struggling with food. God has already won the victory over it in my life, I still need to move out of the way in order to see it clearly. 

God is showing me the way. He’s shown I can do the hard work and stick with it especially through rough times. I trust myself, I know I can do the work to heal my relationship with food. With every change I made in life I was sick of being fed up, sick of constantly struggling. Struggling is wrestling with a circumstance or situation that could otherwise be given to God. I wrestle with things I can surrender and allow God to control. I’m having a hard time yielding because I’m still buying into the illusion that I’m going to miss out. When really I’m missing out on deepening my physical health which will impact my spiritual health. 

Time is not running out but I don’t like to live in the lie that I have time, no one knows how much time we really have but God. I feel Him nudging me in this direction. The devil wants to kill, steal, and destroy. I’ve given up the other things he wanted to use, the next thing is unhealthy food. Salt is just as deadly as alcohol. Sugar is equally fatal to cocaine. What I put in my body is a reflection of how I show value.  Do I truly value my body and ultimately my life when I continue to load it down with things that can kill? Absolutely not. I yearn for more years spent on this earth and food plays a part in the equation. 

Food is an everyday battle for me, there are days when I do great and others when I throw caution to the wind especially on the weekend. Either way, I want God to get the glory from what I choose to eat. Right now I can honestly say, God is not consistently glorified in this area…but He will be!