herlucidlife

Hard learned lessons of life have been more difficult than traditional schooling. Some lessons have been gut wrenching while others have been light, right back to heart dropping. God either allows things to work for my good or He dealt the blow to undo bondage. God’s lessons can sometimes hurt but they always build up for the greater good of the Kingdom. While others lessons are enjoyable and allow confirmation that I’m on the right track. Lately I’ve been in the school of hard lessons, looking deeply at who I am. First I’ve been learning more about who God is. When I see who God is I better understand how I am supposed to operate in our relationship. 

Something about God knowing it all sent me into orbit. A sharp truth was spoken to me through a book I’ve been reading today. I got excited about the eternal life God has for me. I got excited about learning about the eternal position in heaven. I’ve always been the believer that thought heaven was all about praising God. I never considered that heaven would be living the life God created initially. Judgement is taking account of what I’ve done but that it would be an interview on where I best fit in the Kingdom of God as my eternal role in the new world He is creating. I got so jazzed! So pause…let’s take a step back to this life currently. 

The decision I make in this life, this vapor of a life so small compared to eternity that it could be seen as almost nothing. Some of these words are mine while others belong to John Bevere, but stay with me here. It’s wild how something that would seem so insignificant is the foundation of where we could end up for all eternity. Every decision and lack of decision sets the stage. Whether you choose to believe in Jesus and follow Him daily in relationship or not, there is a consequence to it all. This life is no longer pointless when God is in the room. I can not say where anyone may go in their eternal life, I believe in a heaven and hell. God has said those who believe in Jesus Christ and confess that He is their Lord and Savior will be in heaven with Him. While those who believe in everything else and never turn to God will be thrown into the fire…God’s words not mine. 

With that I’ve been doing my best to make sure every decision I make will bring about good rewards in heaven. For God says not to store up treasures on earth but to store treasures in heaven. The beauty of the truth is that God has forgotten every sin because He sees me through the blood of Jesus. When God and I face each other, I will take account of all the decisions I’ve made in my life. God knows every intention. What got me was not only will this account be done with God but with all the heavenly hosts. Every one in heaven will know everything I did on earth. The greatest gift is that God will find a place for me in His Kingdom. I will have a heavenly role that I live out for the rest of my days…eternity. 

I seek God with all my heart on earth because it will create treasures in heaven. I seek His righteousness with all my soul because I want to be a good daughter to my Father. I want to know He is pleased with me. I seek Him with all my mind because even the intentions, motives, and thoughts He can see. God said to take captive every thought and make it obedient to Christ. My thoughts and ways are not hidden from God, rather I offer them freely before His feet. He will make sure I am pleasing to Him when I walk in His way. Believe me it’s hard, I had the urge to watch porn last night. The urge and thought hit out of nowhere. I hadn’t had the urge in over four months. Told myself to remember that God can see me, I do not want to cause a rift in our relationship. I went to bed and the next day had no desire. I’m learning and growing, the goal isn’t being perfect. Remembering most decisions are an eternal decision and with that I want to make sure it’s pleasing.