herlucidlife

I don’t know where you are or who you are with. I don’t know how your life is going but something in my gut says things are falling apart. Life is hitting you hard, gut wrenching realizations are slapping you in the face. You can no longer ignore your part in the wreckage in your midst, your heart is broken and there’s no one safe in your life. I come to your mind but you feel too far gone to even think about reaching out. So you keep going. You don’t know where to start, you need help. Backs have been turned and those you trusted have let you down, you’re seeing the choices you made have consequences. Delayed judgement is not lack of judgement. 

Karma is simply judgement for what we’ve done wrong dealt by God’s hand. God often breaks down to build up. Takes away to give back something newer than before. Sometimes, God brings destruction to show us how much we play apart in our own downfall. I would love to be there for you but you aren’t strong enough to say anything. Life has beat you, your choices most importantly have created collateral damage. Chaos you have no clue how to sift through. I’m talking from the gut. I pray for your well being, you never left my heart. God can hear me and I pray He brings you back home. 

Can home really be where the heart is? Or is true home with God? Something was missing between us. Perhaps we needed time apart to find what was missing in ourselves before we could see what was missing in us. Things weren’t right. I don’t know what is happening but I know that I’m growing more weary. Weary of waiting, feeling impatient but I haven’t done anything. I’m patiently doing the work on myself while God prepares the way. I pray the way is to you and if not then I’ll continue walking. If God could be so gracious to allow our paths to cross again, I’d continue loving you more than I do now. 

Goodnight, hopefully I see you tonight in dreamland.