herlucidlife

In the last posts, I stated that I’ve been focused on the lack of discernment I practice. I have the discernment yet I don’t use it. My friend and I watched a movie recently, it highlighted a lot of truths that I had either been ignoring or weren’t truly taking seriously. I’ve been inviting the devil in because it promised “love” when it was really lust. I allowed the devil’s tactics to take me hostage because I didn’t want to wait for God. I wanted to be in control of my life and urges but I learned I can not control those things without God. 

I am absolutely guarded by God because He didn’t allow the devil to completely destroy me but oh my goodness, I opened my body to the ways of the world. I allowed men into my life because I thought love could be bought with sex. The movie depicted the ways of the devil so plainly that it’s almost sickening how I choose to fall for the same ruse every single time. In the movie the devil portrayed itself as loving and full of fellowship, essentially an angel of light. Yet the truth was the person didn’t realize the hurt and pain they were signing up for by accepting the invitation. 

It was very disturbing and it felt like God was helping me see how easy it can be to accept the wrong invitation and not be able to turn back. The people that accepted the devil’s way were not able to turn back. While others were simply in the wrong place at the wrong time. How many times have I signed up for something that I wouldn’t have been able to escape? The true protection of God was around me because I didn’t know I was mingling with the devil. Even in my last situationship, I didn’t realize it. God showed me I need to focus on the spirit of the person more than the actual person. 

The devil and his minions mask themselves as angels of light. They look good, feel good, and talk good but once they’ve sucked the person in, true colors are shown. Without the protection of God it could be too late to turn back because now the dark spirit has entered into the unaffected person. So many times I have laid with the devil, believing the words. I was ignoring the gut feeling because I wanted the illusion of love to be a reality. What I didn’t realize was I was forfeiting true love with God for a counterfeit. I was impatient. Didn’t want to humble myself and surrender myself but I was willing to surrender myself to the very thing that wanted me dead spiritually and physically. 

Everyday God is bringing to me the severity of the other side. It’s easy to see the world in a material kind of way but there is a spirit attached to every person. A hard truth I often ignored. Thankfully God protected me once more. Yet I want to use the tools God has given me so He doesn’t always have to re-teach the lesson. This movie absolutely drilled the truth home that I have to be careful and cautious about who I allow into my life because I accept more than the person but the spirit attached to the person. 

This is a reminder to myself to be vigilant with my spirit.