herlucidlife

He’s on the way. I feel something shifting in my gut, a knowing of something unseen. He’s almost here. Watching women that I’ve been watching for years getting married, maintaining relationships. He’s almost here. Asking God to grant me the words to process the intuition I am feeling. It’s really easy to think something is intuition or God’s voice when it’s simply heavy emotions. 

Recently I’ve had a lot of peace in this area of my life. I haven’t felt the need to chase or give unnecessary attention to any man. Comfortable in my lane for the moment because goodness knows the sentiment could change tomorrow. Yet just for today I feel content. Life has been flowing, my horizons have broadened and I’m welcoming new people into my life. 

New people coming into my life also allows an open lane for my person to come into my life. I was stuck in a little rut. Only going to the places I was comfortable, doing the same routine over and over. I needed something new in areas that are fundamental. Recovery never changes but I can go to a different meeting or reach out to new people. I go to the same gym, yet I switch the workouts and frequent different spaces in the gym that I didn’t before. Church can be expanded by being over service in different ministries. 

With that being said I needed to change something in order to open a lane for that special person. Life can change with one detail. Major changes happen over the course of a million little details. Things I don’t see are happening in the lives of others just so our paths can cross and vice versa. This is not much of a love story yet I see how things are aligning and how I’m changing for the better. 

It’s an unexplainable hope and faith that I have, almost like something is in the air. My heart feels light instead of heavy. Though it could change in the blink of an eye, I know things are happening.