herlucidlife

I’ve been putting myself out there. Getting to know new people at work, going to a different N.A. meeting. Choosing my homegroup, allowing others to love me and I love them. It feels as though something in me is being healed through knowing people that were strangers just a month ago. It was easy to see I had found my people. I love how God continues to extend my circle while allowing me to feel anchored. 

Feels like I’m rambling but I feel led to write something. I joined a homegroup. The people remind me of the church family I grew up around. They remind me of the down-to-earth good natured, well intentioned people I grew up with. Looking around the room, I felt a familiar spirit of being welcomed and nurtured. 

Immediately, it hit me that healing was being brought to my inner self. Watching God work things out, broadens my horizon. It all began with looking up a different meeting for a friend and I to attend because the times didn’t work for her. God was using that rather small detail to bring me into connection with the people I needed to be around. Sometimes I think I’m doing things for others, when really God is using them to get me to where I need to be. 

I’ve been learning that miracles aren’t an event or even a sudden change, it’s recognizing how the smallest details can change everything. Some miracles can go unnoticed because they seem mundane or rather unimportant. Since God is in the details and the greater scope of it all, I think to ignore the details is to ignore a huge part of who God is. He cares about everything no matter how big or small. 

God is both, not an either or. He’s been showing me slowly that He orchestrates every detail to get me into the correct position. The more people God brings me into contact with, the more people see His glory. His glory is not for my eyes only. God receiving glory is a community event, it’s a display of what God has done, is doing and a testament of what He will do. He renews my faith everyday, faith is not produced when life always goes my way. True faith is produced when it does not go my way but I trust God’s path anyway. 

Now I see every “no” was a redirect. I understand every “no” was God strengthening my faith. I accept that every “no” has confirmed His control over my life. I acknowledge every “yes” was simply God saying, “it’s time.” Life is only uncertain because we aren’t God. The only certainty I have is God, with that I do my best to accept, release and experience.