herlucidlife

Live spelled backwards is evil. Living in a way that is opposite of God is evil. He is the giver of life, to obtain life without Him is not living at all. Evil breeds death. Sitting at my desk, waiting for the next chat bubble to populate. Working on a wordsearch, looking for the word evil. Looking at the word live in the bottom corner of the word search it hit me. 

Never noticing the detail before. I love how God will conceal some details until the correct time. Sitting in my home, feeling relaxed, filled and cared for. My Father sent me a gift this morning. He heard my silent cry. Sometimes gratitude and content is a cry for help, only God understands the nature underneath. 

I was thinking about going to bed when I reached for my laptop to peck away at the keys. I was so thankful. There are certain situations and circumstances in my life today that would have never come to pass without God. The details of each gift has come with some not so savory things. It’s really easy for me to only think about the good aspects of God’s gifts. Yet I’ve been seeing that each gift houses things that I never expected, something that would be painful, or challenging in order to grow me further.

When I moved to a new state, I was only looking at what I wanted to happen. I completely ignored the details, I couldn’t see them. I completely ignore any challenges that could arise. The struggles had me questioning the goodness of the gift. Yet the gift wasn’t only receiving, it was actually being in the presence of God. The gift was knowing God’s love gave me something I couldn’t have gained on my own.

It was knowing He hears me in all thoughts, actions, speech and tears. The gift shows His character of never being alone, nor forsaken. The gift shows His attention to detail, God cares about the nuances of my life. Nothing is too small for God to care about because it is the mundane and large things of life that actively affect my faith walk with God. The gift also shows that He is in the business of moving forward. Looking behind, wallowing over the past is not of God. There are certain seasons for certain emotions but in all things we are to move forward. 

Some of the greatest gifts God has given me has been the tool for the greatest growth to my faith. Growth means God is helping me move forward and gain an understanding of who He is in lieu of who I am. Through His gifts He’s shown me how much I’ve grown. In the past I would have used God’s gifts for frivolous things, yet now I find joy in being a good steward of the gift. Doing what is responsible with the gift and allowing it to help me move ahead. 

Moving ahead does not look the same for everyone. In this space of my life moving ahead simply means making sure my home, body, spirit, and community is full of what it needs to run efficiently.