herlucidlife

Jesus is the judge. I always thought God was the judge, but God gave that responsibility to Jesus. John 5:22-23 states “the Father in fact, judges no one but has given all judgement to the Son, so that all people will honor the Son just as they honor the Father.” It’s really easy to look at judgement as something that is far off. As a believer I feel Jesus prompting me all the time to navigate the way I live life differently. I know I will take account of my actions in this life, they are a serious matter. 

The One who died for me will also be the One I stand in front of to give my life events. Judgment is close by, it happens on this side of life too. It is in my heart every time I do something I should not be doing. It is the soft correction I feel in my spirit. It is the conviction that is received when I act out of line. It is knowing the facts about Jesus’ character and seeing how my character does not always match. 

1 Peter 4:7-9

“The end of all things is near; therefore, be serious and disciplined for prayer. Above all, maintain an intense love for each other, since love covers a multitude of sins.” There are things that are going on in this world that signify a great departure, an ending of all things. There is a peace that comes over me when I think about the time coming. I long to be home with Jesus. I adore my life and the many gifts He has granted me. I look forward to going home. I know everyone does not feel that sentiment. Some do not care, some do not consider it, while others may be frightened of the thought. 

God says to stay serious and disciplined for  prayer. I’ve been slacking on my prayer, though I feel God bringing me back into the fold. Prayer is the most loving thing you can do for another, lifting that person up to God in love. When He says, love covers a multitude of sins, I believe God is reminding me that it is His love that covers sins, not mine. My love has oftentimes been jaded, self righteous, manipulative, it’s been everything but loving. I understand that I never really knew how to love and I’m just now learning what the action and thought process of true love looks like. 

So my love does not cover anything but the love of Jesus covers a multitude of sins. By following the example of Jesus in learning how to love, so the love I have for others can grow in intensity. Love in the past was always a transaction and still I have to catch myself sometimes to not fall into that cycle. The more I read the word, the more sins want to come out and be acted on. I’ve been doing my best to push past the yearning to masturbate. Out of sheer will power because I haven’t been praying about it. As I sit here doing my best to focus on the word, the thought “let ‘s watch porn” pops into my mind. 

Like the disease it is, I tell myself if you want to watch tonight then go for it. I keep pushing it off. Doing my best to deny myself evil desires that only create turmoil on the inside.