herlucidlife

I’ve been wondering about something lately. Moving all the time, not receiving enough rest partly due to busyness and the other due to procrastination. I’m tired physically and mentally. My spirits are high. I keep pushing. I knew a season would come where things would be busy. For a moment life was slower, very few moving parts. 

I’m having a hard time factoring in true rest. Things that fill my soul, things that calm the mind. I feel as though I’m squeezing things in, leaving myself being even more exhausted and tired. Doing my best to stick to routine, follow the course. I don’t regret the work I’m putting in. The journey is wonderful, I’ve been able to see things in myself while also habits that desperately need to change. 

For a long time I was living life unaware of the toxic habits I hold. I was assuming that I was not the problem, yet when life comes and goes and the only consistent person is God and myself then clearly I am the problem. I’m so grateful to see so much growth in myself, mindset shifting and lifting. Thinking with more maturity, playing the tape through learning my patterns while doing my best to not fall into them. Some patterns are easier said than done. 

I’m proud of myself with all the things swirling in my head, I keep moving. Sometimes I don’t do my best while other days I do. Regardless I keep moving forward, keep staying the course, keep moving in the right direction. I’m moving with progress not perfection.