herlucidlife

As the low self-esteem set in throughout the days, the only things that kept me afloat was knowing God has chosen me regardless of what my body looks like and what I can do. God wants all my heart, all my soul and all my mind. Nothing more and nothing less is required. 

The blood of Jesus pours over my spirit, soul and mind at every moment whether I know it or acknowledge it. That reality allows me to find peace in the molding. It brings great comfort when I feel uncomfortable in my body. Knowing the righteousness of God chose me when I was deep in my sin and despair and continues to choose everyday, with no regret.  

There is work to be done whether I feel like it or not. There is obedience to be completed whether my mind is focused on it or not. The devil doesn’t always have to attack, I can attack myself at times when I’m weak in the mind. When I’m weak and beating myself down because all the lies haven’t been removed yet, it takes extra effort to stay the course. 

I do my best to use those moments as fuel to do something different, something healthy. I know I can cycle and spiral out of control and ruin what has been built, yet God continues to help me choose the correct path when there is a fork in the road.  Some say there is no right or wrong way to live life. For me the wrong way is anything that goes against God. The right way is anything that goes along with His biblical teachings and character. 

God is helping me live the correct way. The word says that Jesus is the way, the truth and the life and that no one comes to the Father except through Him. The way is through Jesus. The truth is Jesus. Jesus gives life, and when done His way that life allows me to be called a daughter of the Most High God. Nothing more important than that. 

It is a reminder of His truth that cancels out the lies in my head. It is the Almighty still being by my side that keeps the pain from taking me out. People come and go but the love of God has never gone it has only entered and stayed.