herlucidlife

She didn’t believe in the God I serve. Sharing that I meditate on scripture daily, she tried to poke holes in the fortress of my faith. My spirit was peeved, some days having gone by still not able to let go of the comments.  Asking God, speaking to some friends, sitting in a meeting God’s clarity came to me with each share. 

It was clear I had to end my sponsorship relationship. She had served the needed goal of helping me through the first ten steps. Yet she can’t walk with me where I’m going. No bad blood, the moment I let her know I was removing myself a weight was lifted. An unknown strain, sitting in the background unaware. 

My shoulders felt lighter. The plan was always to leave the relationship though God had an early time frame. Still going to NA meetings and working my steps, I’ve been resting in the hope of God. Allowing Him to move my recovery as He’s always done. Right before my three year anniversary, recovery hasn’t been perfect. I’m excited to see what God has in store, in the meantime I keep working.