herlucidlife

One year clean…MIRACLES STILL HAPPEN! Being in recovery gave everything I never thought I’d have again…and then some. The gifts of recovery are not material, they are tangibly invisible. Being clean is more than not using drugs, it’s diligently removing the toxic behavior and replacing them with spiritual principles. Being in the program helped me grasp God’s hand a little tighter. It helped me see the error of my ways a lot brighter. 

Selfish in my thinking, I see so clearly the defects of character and what needs to take place to change them. Focusing on the outward is a distraction from the destruction inside. Guns aren’t dangerous people are. Knives don’t cut unless humans make it do so. And drugs can only harm me if I choose to take that first shot. One is too many and a thousand is never enough. Doing my best to be a part of the no matter what club, nothing in life is too heavy nor too small for me to use over. 

At one year clean the work has only begun. Brain fog and fatigue took a whole year to get through. Emotions are all over the place yet stability has come into my life. My outward life changed because I chose to do things differently. My life will continue to change because as I shift the decisions I choose will morph. Every choice begins with the chooser. Every mistake begins with the thinker and every right choice begins with a heart aligned with God. 

Drugs no longer control my day, my body, my thinking. Doing my best to put down addictive behaviors. Recovery has put me in rooms with people I’d never know and now can’t imagine life without. Addicts are beautiful vibrant people with hearts bigger than the oceans, yet the most brutally hurt people you’ll ever meet. Surviving situations and circumstances that make life look like a twisted LifeTime horror movie. We were blessed to walk away and start anew. People are overdosing every day, at alarming rates. I can not force anymore to stop using, yet I’d hope the resiliency in my life speaks to them and says, “You don’t have to use any drug to cope with life. You do not have to poison your body to simply get through the day. Drugs do not make life better but instead create more unmanageability. Absolutely nothing in life is worth being drugged out, even if it’s recreational.”