herlucidlife

I’m having emotions about being quiet in a friendship. Heavy emotions are setting in yet I keep staying the course. Distance is being created, not on my own accord. What’s confusing me is I have these heavy emotions about it though I wouldn’t say I miss that person. I almost lean toward indifference. 

Not giving the effort, time and energy feels good. The nervous system feels relaxed and gathered to itself. I’m also operating under the understanding that this is simply a pause, a future interaction is coming. The future interaction scares me the most because what am I going to say? 

I remind myself that it’s not happening today. God will give the words once it happens. The truth is really the most potent. I have no clue what the future holds, perhaps it’s faded with no interaction in sight or maybe there will be one. Regardless, I will continue to follow the voice of “be still and quiet” until it instructs something different.