herlucidlife

A chapter is never fully closed until the other party is aware. A month had gone by with no contact from either side. Pecking away at my computer at work, my mind had actually gotten used to that person not being in my life. So much so that I was no longer trying to understand anything, I was simply living. 

Living my life, going through the days as unbothered as possible. Looking at my phone, her name was on my screen. Immediately my stomach dropped, my hunger went away and I felt guilt. Speaking with God quietly, asking Him what I should do. I felt a nudge saying “be honest.” Honest about where I had been mentally with our friendship.

She was gracious and understood that I needed to exit her life. Ending amicably, with no sore words, given great empathy. A weight had been lifted, a door had been closed. Going from friends to sideline cheerleaders. Wishing that person the best, continuing to add them in prayers. Some things really do need to be from a distance. 

I noticed how God has used me as someone that sprinkles truth and love in someone’s life then I move on to the next person that is in need. Every time someone has been removed, God has brought someone that needs pouring into. I wonder who will be the next person that needs watering? Perhaps that very person is me!