herlucidlife

My sponsor suggested that I give three weeks to adopt some hobbies. Already loving to color, I thought about expanding my painting. I love to paint, nothing super major but it brings great joy. Going to the Dollar Tree to get a couple canvases to paint on. Thinking about how I wanted to begin, I thought about drawing my own picture then painting it. Something different I’d never done. Staying up into the wee hours of the night painting. Leaning over my creation, blending the colors. 

I couldn’t help but think about how God looks at me. Someone He created, His daughter. Looking at the painting, nothing perfect but threw my eyes. It’s more than perfect. It is more than chosen, it is more than my heart desires. Continuing to blend the paint. I think about how God has continued to make my life into the best masterpiece I’ve ever laid eyes on. Feeling the words come to me during creation I had to stop and jot it down. 

I am a beloved masterpiece, crafted by God before I even hit my mother’s womb. I could not have created a better thing. The greatest Creator of all time has now called me to partner in the creating. He allows me to have choices in this life that create consequences that further add to the tapestry of my life. How beautiful is it that my life also creates waves in the lives of others. Still I sit looking at my little painting. Enormous joy in the quiet of my apartment. Singing to my heart’s content. 

Content. Allowing my thoughts to wonder with no restraint, just as I’ve created something with my hands, my mind creates little worlds that I can pop into for exploration. Sitting on the sofa I began to smile thinking, “wow I’m a cool chick.” Something I hadn’t always thought. I’m learning to see my goodness through the eyes of God. That perhaps as I cultivate myself, I will continue to grow into someone that I admire and cherish.