herlucidlife

Been doing my best to settle down, to bring myself back down to life. I haven’t been making time for spiritual habits. I shared a very important boundary when texting a young man I met on hinge. When coming back into the world of dating, I’ve been doing my best to see it as a learning opportunity to be more intentional. 

Ask questions that lead to figuring out who that person is at the core, while also sharing things about myself. When I shared my boundary was not having sex, specifically until married again. I was surprised that he continued to text me and say good morning. Yet I knew it was a dead end when I asked if we could hang out and he declined, stating one day. 

Mentally my mind checked out. Trying to thumb through the faces on Hinge. I don’t feel any yearning to find anyone. I want my person to fall out of the sky and then present himself to me. Unfortunately life has never worked that way. I’ve had to do some kind of work on myself in order to be in the correct place at the right time. It’s giving, I’m tired before it even begins.