herlucidlife

2025

  • restricted

    Driving home from the laundromat I felt emotions I didn’t want to feel. Things underneath I…

  • internal

    I often question the posture of my heart when speaking about Christ. Pride can mask itself…

  • accept Him

    Laying in bed, doing my best to fall into a slumber, my mind is churning thinking…

  • bow down

    Speaking the truth is hard. Especially when truth goes against what the world chooses to believe.…

  • Holy!

    “Your name is the Highest! Your name is the Greatest! Your name stands above them All!…

  • invitation

    In the last posts, I stated that I’ve been focused on the lack of discernment I…

  • tested

    I’ve been taking a lesson in holy fear and I failed the first real life test.…

  • voices speak

    God was protecting me but I didn’t want to see it. God was removing me from…

  • do it anyway

    God said do not complain. I have a very difficult time not complaining when life happens,…

  • allow Him

    I haven’t been eating alot lately. I’ve severely limited my food intake while also focusing more…

  • lack of friendship

    I’ve been constantly sitting on the reality of total obedience to God. Being a friend of…

  • where’s the joy?

    When the days get quiet. The sun goes down, the rain has slowed leaving a cool…

  • disheartened

    There’s nothing more disheartening than knowing God could excuse you from the gates. That perhaps all…

  • highest priority

    A friend of God. I’ve always had a hard time thinking of God as my friend…

  • forced to eat

    Eating more than I wanted today. My mind is completely irritated with the selections made today.…

  • moment by moment

    I don’t have a lot of words, yet I couldn’t stand to be idle. I finally…

  • our visit

    You came to visit me. It’s been a while since I’ve seen you. Snug in my…

  • perfect details

    It took a toll. Got punched, I was not prepared. Mentally I was trying to prepare…

  • the day

    The days leading up I think about how I’ll feel. I consider the emotions I may…

  • manipulated interest

    Do I truly treasure God ? A question that has been lingering in my mind since…

  • on the path

    Holiness takes work. Living clean takes labor, more than not using drugs. Living in a way…

  • the end of myself

    Watching my dear friend teach his tumbling class. Listening to the words he told the girls,…

  • come home

    The other night I was very down on myself. Looking too much at my body and…

  • pleasing

    Hard learned lessons of life have been more difficult than traditional schooling. Some lessons have been…

  • no social

    Along with the thought of motives, I began looking at the reason I post to social…

  • proper service

    I am a people pleasing manipulator who does nice acts of service out of self preservation.…

  • not me, but Him

    I felt self conscious all day, holding my stomach in so as to not look bloated.…

  • streamline

    Consistency creates confidence. Self esteem is built through consistently taking care of myself and making other’s…

  • genuine care

    Doing my best, people float around doing various exercises to further their fitness journey. Looking at…

  • teach me how to love

    My heart became so heavy at the realization that I do not have a healthy awe…

  • God hates sin

    Going deeper in God, reading “The Awe of God” by John Bevere the statement was posed…

  • daily worship

    I got a new job. I left the comfort of what I knew for something I…

  • God spoke

    I, Yahweh has spoken, was repeated all throughout Ezekiel. What God speaks is what will be.…

  • account

    Fourteen cents in my account. Two dollars in coins. I felt like a fiend when I…

  • be nurtured

    An idol is anything and anyone I place above God. I had so many idols I…

  • a saved mess

    Had a conversation with my pastor today. I gave my life over to God because the…

  • burning bright

    Church service has let out, my soul is full of not simply conviction but obedience. Driving…

  • lesson of courage

    I have been praying for courage lately. God gave me a lesson in courage because something…

  • shining God’s light

    I understand the pain folks have experienced in church. Some go to church yet never really…

  • church is community

    Church, a place where like-minded people go to communion with the Spirit of God. Believers, non-believers,…

  • the plan

    Laundromat. The smell of Gain washing powder in the air, the quiet hum of dryers and…

  • not the only one

    I say I trust and I’ve tried His faithfulness and He is true to the core.…

  • do I trust God?

    Snow falling in clusters. Purposely sleeping on the couch, the night before so I could wake…

  • two years

    Two Years. On March sixth, twenty twenty-five I will have two years clean from all drugs.…

  • dream bigger

    When I tunneled in on the word impact, it changed how I pray over my blogs.…

  • follow Him

    Going to the gym, bopping around town, head down minding my business. Distractions have been minimal.…

  • God remains

    Remaining on the vine, the branch will die if it is separated from the vine. The…

  • something different

    You know what’s crazy, all the crying I do over Z and the absence of romantic…

  • one day

    I always seem to fall for the guy that’s no good for me. I yearn for…