I don’t want to ramble but if you haven’t noticed this platform is an online diary.…

Haven’t been ranting and raving over my love life like in past posts. Began looking at…

Loving messages sent by readers warms my heart. I can become irritated with well-meaning folks that…

I’ve been slacking on NA meetings, getting burnt out on the responsibility it takes to not…

Healing in God given foods there’s also death in things not created by Him. For anything…

Life can be draining, desolate, dreary, and feel meaningless. God brings life when I’ve run out,…

I read a comment from a dear friend and it made me tear a little, not…

Fragile is a mindset that is felt in the emotions and heart. Sometimes the days run…

It’s so easy to bury my head in the sand when change seems too overwhelming. Spending…

I know for a fact I live out prayers mom spoke over me with tears in…

I had to word vomit just to stay a float, life morphing into seasons I didn’t…

I laugh because the up and down motion of my chest soothes my heart. Affect has…

Stealing joy out of situations that would have otherwise been okay untouched. It was going well…

Emotional in my decision making down to the core. I’m now seeing that rational thinking is…

I sleep to not overthink to then have vivid dreams, the mind is always awake, never…

Purposely pushing you out of my mind, thinking of you helps in no way at all.…

I want to hold you to the fire but it contradicts the lesson God has given.…

If the reader would give me one more moment to vent that would be so gracious…

Trying to give a human I’d known for years a chance. Your absence has been on…

I always speak too soon then the tides change. Not being able to control the other…

Not ever having faith in love, fear of them walking away was there from the beginning…I…

Lack of money usually forces me into the sobriety corner, not because I want to be…

Allowing others to think I’m okay with the behavior they push my way is another form…

I could speak of you all day…I do to myself anyhow. Allowing myself to be more…

Sensing sobriety isn’t just about me, it’s also for that fellow addict that is working just…

Discipline requires consistent practice, diligence to the details mapped out in every routine in my mind,…

Hiding behind the characteristic of being quiet, shy to some folks. Really it’s fear choking the…

Shame can set in sometimes when I think about the way I go after marijuana. Chasing…

Sitting on the sofa watching young black and brown skinned women like me reach monuments on…

Thinking deeply about who I am. Diving into the abyss of this inner mortal, she’s beautifully…

Nervous to accept the help because I never want to be a burden while holding onto…

I still live my life as though mommy is coming back to pick up the pieces.…

Switching to the earthly man who wants to be in my life, applying consistent pressure. Demonstrating…

Substance doesn’t cure what is broken. Habit wants to go back but knowing understands going deeper…

Sadness eventually set in like it always does, bloated not feeling good about myself, at the…

Sniggling and giggling like a tween in the midst of a first puppy love, nothing has…

Esteem is low, confidence sitting on the floor, insecurity rising because it was rooted in another…

His golden hour hits me every time his name crosses my screen, I smile so big…

Buying weed for the second time this week, I’m sick of seeing my dealer. Not buddies…

The substitute never hits like the real thing. The fill in should never be invited because…

Began talking to this guy I cheered with in college. As a new freshman he was…

It’s usually the life in between the trauma that makes it feel worlds away. It’s the…

My emotional state is a voice, a decision to see things either as they are or…

Considering what self-love looks like it’s different for everyone. Pondering over the small behaviors and habits…

I’m not in the season of loving someone other than myself. An area has been carved…

Emotions and feelings have not been reflecting the reality I live in everyday. Gray, heavy, solemn…

The sadness inside is mild, still like a fog in my aura. Engulfing my happiness yet…

I fight back tears, sometimes it seems pointless to cry. It doesn’t change the situation or…

I never interpret dreams or pay attention to them for that matter. Yet these past years…

Down and out for a week recovering from the disease that shut the world down. Coming…