herlucidlife

2026

  • lighter

    My sponsor suggested that I give three weeks to adopt some hobbies. Already loving to color,…

  • the other side

    Giddy, humming to myself at work. Laughing at my own jokes. The mind, body and spirit…

  • sure foundation

    Sitting at my laptop, looking at the keys. So much flooding my mind but nothing coming…

  • nothing to change

    Standing in the mirror putting my hand on my tummy saying, “I love you.” I felt…

  • an easier love

    In the midst of removing myself from a friendship I also canceled my gym membership. I…

  • detach

    Took a couple days to fully stop the spiral of guilt from removing myself from a…

  • chapter closed

    A chapter is never fully closed until the other party is aware. A month had gone…

  • whatever season

    A friendship on pause. What am I trying to say Lord? What am I feeling? I…

  • instructed

    I’m having emotions about being quiet in a friendship. Heavy emotions are setting in yet I…

  • regaining energy

    God sees and knows all. He knows the conversations that are had when I leave the…

  • be still

    I’ve been going back and forth in my mind. Praying to God, allowing space for Him…

  • the reality of…

    On Thursday night it seemed as though life stood still. Numb, zombied for the next four…

  • numb

    I’m not sure where to go from here. So much centered around sex. Who knew something…

  • named

    I’ve often kept the blame on me in an effort to not be a victim in…

  • “asking for it”

    I’ve often taken on blame too easily. Giving myself all of the responsibility. Looking at my…

  • nauseating

    We’re moving. God moved me physically, allowing me to have everything I needed to shift and…

  • forest of shame and fear

    The obsessive thoughts have killed me for way too long. I yearn for a mind that…

  • the next phase

    I’ve been struggling with holding content within myself and wanting a partner. In the past it…

  • so deep

    Jonah was sent to Nineveh to share the gospel with the unbeliever. God had already prepared…

  • i don’t have the answers

    Having slept most of the day, my emotions feel heavy. Speaking with my sponsor yesterday, she…

  • i don’t know how

    I’ve been experiencing heavy shame for my sexuality lately. A straight woman, sex has been something…

  • sponsorship

    She didn’t believe in the God I serve. Sharing that I meditate on scripture daily, she…

  • the weight

    Walking past the mirror, feeling self conscious at the gym with my coveralls on. Nothing peaking…

  • prophesy to the breath

    Ezekiel chapter thirty-seven, speaks of the valley of dry bones that God raised. Imagine bones so…

  • not ideal

    “The spot may not be ideal but it’s still producing fruit.” Watching a YouTube video of…

  • twilight zone

    The ten year anniversary of my mother’s death is coming up. I always wondered where I…

  • and stayed

    As the low self-esteem set in throughout the days, the only things that kept me afloat…

  • self conscious

    While visiting my family, I could feel the low self-esteem coming into my mind. Getting in…

  • back home

    Christmas day, watching basketball games with my family. Having shared a meal, belly full, eyes getting…

  • presence

    Mozying down the highway, making my way to see family. Pulling into the driveway to my…

  • do i love myself?

    The relationship with myself has always been damaged. The view and perspective I have of myself…

  • feminine

    Since I was seventeen I’ve struggled with porn. Yet before that it was only fantasy and…

  • rebuilding

    This time of singleness has created a wholeness within my body, soul and spirit. Pieces of…

  • debunked

    A young man that lives one door down from me found some interest in me. I…